When Words Flatter

Late this summer I was feeling self-conscious that though I was five months pregnant, I didn’t look “pregnant enough.”

My belly was small but growing … and just when I finally felt like I looked pregnant (i.e., 20-22 weeks) a comment someone made really upset me. I shared the incident in this post, “When Words Sting.”

Well, imagine my surprise when, yesterday, the person who had made that comment over the summer paid me a lovely compliment! Continue reading “When Words Flatter”


Seven Years

Today marks seven years  I’ve been on Weight Watchers. (You can read my 5-year WW anniversary post here)

Seven years of journaling (for better or worse).

Seven years of a commitment to health and fitness (for better or worse).

Seven years of changing clothes sizes (for better and for worse).

During these seven years I have changed so much …  physically, mentally, and emotionally. I’m not the same person I was 7 years ago at 24 … and I’m not even the same person I was two years ago at 29. Continue reading “Seven Years”

One Pregnancy Pound to Go …

This Friday, the scale (a simple tool of measurement today, not the dictator of my life like before) told me I had one pre-pregnancy pound to lose.

I was pleased to know this stat, but given the fact that most of my pre-pregnancy clothes (pants, specifically) no longer fit … it’s hard to get too excited: I still have work to do to tone up and get my body into better shape.

I know what to do, and am doing it — but without the obsessiveness of the past. I’m not beating myself up for any of it; I’m just stating it as a fact. It is what it is.

Continue reading “One Pregnancy Pound to Go …”

Post-Partum Jeans Shopping: Dressing for the Here & Now

A long time ago, I wrote a post at WeAretheRealDeal called “Dressing for Me” that I revisited tonight.

You see, in October 2009, I finally came to terms with no longer being a size 8 (at least not in pants).

That month, I bought my first post-WW pair of size 10s, a blow to my former size-6’s ego. Though I still fit into some size 8s in my closet, I was definitely squeezing myself into them … and it wasn’t pretty. I knew needed to buy a size up and so, as I described in that post, I bit the bullet. The world did not come crashing down, no one judged me and life carried on.

Then came pregnancy.I didn’t gain a ton of weight (25 lbs total) but my body definitely changed. Continue reading “Post-Partum Jeans Shopping: Dressing for the Here & Now”

In Pregnancy, a Neon Sign Might as Well Read: “Open for Judgment 24/7”

The past two days I had two interesting  body image experiences worthy of sharing here.

First, yesterday at the dog park, a woman my husband and I were chatting with asked when I was due. (Cue the fireworks, marching band, and streamers!).

I was wearing my fave pre-pregnancy gray winter trench coat, belted above my growing bump, and only buttoned on the first button. I finally felt like I actually “looked” pregnant from the front (not just the side) and was completely flattered and pleased with her comment. Continue reading “In Pregnancy, a Neon Sign Might as Well Read: “Open for Judgment 24/7””


I count my pre-pregnancy weight as what I weighed before I knew I was pregnant, but my OB only started weighing me at 10 weeks, so there’s been a 2-lb discrepancy from the get-go. He was concerned because as of my last visit I was only up 10.6 (which wasn’t much for 28 weeks at the time), but on my scale, it was 12.6 (which was probably fine).

Still, he is measuring me on his scale which means that’s the “official” reading.

And I think he’ll be very pleased! Continue reading “WOOT!”

Listening to My Body/Update

I’ve been eating more, per my doctor’s orders, and hopefully will show a gain tomorrow when I WI at home. My next doctor’s appointment isn’t until the 14th, but I’d like to check in tomorrow to see if it’s working. My hubby noticed Baby Girl looked bigger this week in my belly, so hopefully that’s a good thing!

I’ve also been listening to my body more. If before bed, I’m hungry, I have some whole grain cereal and milk or something. Likewise, if I wake up starving and can’t wait for breakfast at work (as has happened all this week), I make a small bowl of cereal and then eat again an hour or two later at work.

I am at the place now where I recognize that listening to my body is really important. I have two and a half months left (roughly) and this is when she needs to be gaining weight. And several of my girlfriends are nursing now and talk about how important it is to eat enough; how that is helping them produce more milk. It makes sense to me! Continue reading “Listening to My Body/Update”

Growing, growing!

I had my last doctor’s visit of the second trimester yesterday, and it went great!

Baby Girl’s heart rate was a beautiful 144, my hemoglobin count was “excellent,” my blood pressure was low and “excellent,” my uterus measured at 26 cm — which is right on target for being 26 weeks and change), and my weight gain (11.6 to date) was also right on target.

My OB did say to expect to gain another 10-15 in the third trimester, and that will be necessary baby weight, so I feel really good–aside from my lower back hurting a little and feeling some Braxton-Hicks contractions which apparently are quite normal for the stage I’m at. Continue reading “Growing, growing!”

The Mind!@$!@ of “Eating for Two”

“Eating for two” is a total myth during pregnancy.

While it’s true you DO need about 300 extra calories a day (specifically in the 2nd and 3rd trimesters; usually only 100 in the 1st trimester) weight gain recommendations are really individual and dependent more on your pre-pregnancy weight than anything else.

So given the fact that I was about 15 lbs. over my comfortable weight pre-pregnancy, I’ve had 15-20 lbs. as a target gain from the get-go from my OB — which sounded quite doable, especially when you read about what that weight REALLY is.

And truthfully, I’ve been comfortable with that gain. In fact, given where I’m at now (26 weeks/about to start the third trimester next week) I am on track to gain about that much — which makes me (and my doctor and husband and family) happy.

All I know is, to get to that gain, I need to eat more than I had been pre-pregnancy … and so I have — without much difficulty 😉

I’ve felt like I was doing fine with my eating until the past week or so. You see, I didn’t mean to … but I sure felt like I ate for two this week, or at least one and a third. Continue reading “The Mind!@$!@ of “Eating for Two””

Observations on Weight

This morning I noticed I’m pooking out a bit. Finally!

I have been waiting for this day since I found out I was pregnant.

In many ways, you wear pregnancy like a secret badge for the first 14 weeks (i.e., first trimester).

And then, once you feel comfortable saying something — especially if it’s your first pregnancy and you’re like me and not really showing yet — it’s kind of, well, awkward.

I mean, how to bring it up when you’re bursting at the seams but not really bursting out of your seams quite yet?Again, awkward.

So unless the opportunity comes up, I don’t bring it up. In fact, I haven’t said much at work except to the handful of friends who knew what was going on with the testing (and my boss, for obvious reasons!)

That said, I’m rocking maternity clothes now. I mean, really, why the hell not? My amazing mom sent me a TON of adorable things last week — love you, Mama! — and I bought some other stuff.

Even if I don’t have much of an obvious bump to show quite yet and even if they’re a little big, the truth is, they”re way more comfortable than squeezing myself into my regular clothes just because I can. (Just because you “can” doesn’t mean you “should” applies here for sure!).

It’s crazy to me how just a few small pounds can make such a difference to your shape — it’s not at all like when I’ve gained a few pounds in the past. The weight sits very much in my tummy (well, at least for now;  I still have 5 months to go!). Continue reading “Observations on Weight”