Cost-Benefit Analysis

Today was a perfect example of why, in spite of missing my parents and East Coast friends, I’m happy with our life situation here in the Midwest.

Allow me to explain.

I had to go to Chicago for a meeting this morning.  I had to leave at 6:30, which meant I didn’t get to see Maya wake up and give her her milk. I took a pic of her sleeping, tush in the air in froggy pose, and headed out. Continue reading “Cost-Benefit Analysis”


Third Time’s the Charm

I stayed home from work today with Maya today and felt pretty discouraged to see her still in so much discomfort and pain. 😦 She still isn’t herself, and it breaks my heart.

She’s like her newborn self — easily dozing off anywhere and for any increment of time (be it 20 minutes or 2 hours). It’s like the days before she had mobility — she just lays in mama’s arms…til she feels the urge to move, that is! But in all seriousness, she spent most of the day snuggled with me, standing at her “work station,” or in her bed. I’m selfishly cherishing this time because I know she won’t always want to snuggle with me. She’s eating, but not her normal amounts. [I’m paranoid about dehydration so I’m checking to make sure she is having plenty of wet diapers — just like when she was a newborn]. Continue reading “Third Time’s the Charm”

Shaken to the core

We spent last night in the emergency room (see sad, sad pic–>) after Maya had [what turned out to be] a febrile seizure, caused by a sudden spike in temperature.

It was the scariest two minutes of my life as she convulsed with her eyes rolling in the back of her head and clear fluid coming out of her mouth, her head limp like a rag doll but her little body shaking violently …I’m crying even as I type that.

For a moment there — and I shudder to even type this — if felt like it might be the end. It was that frightening and I can’t get the imagery out of my head.

I’m still trying to process what I witnessed my daughter experience and I think sharing it here might help. Continue reading “Shaken to the core”