Dealing With Disappointment

After every major event I’ve planned — be it for work (a press conference, a symposium, a meeting) … or for fun (a party, my wedding, a vacation), following the immediate high of said momentous occasion/event, there’s always that immediate feeling of OK … now what?!

I think that’s part of being one of those people who is always looking four steps ahead and struggles (as I’ve acknowledged here many times) with being content “in the moment” and not looking beyond it towards something else.

The holidays for me are another “event” — and though this year was different in that we weren’t with immediate family or travel anywhere, I still feel that unsettling sense of  “OK, now what?”

Couple this temporary lapse into a depression (which many people experience this time of year) with disappointment in myself (a result of my tighter-than-I’d-like-them-to-be jeans and WAY too many sweets) and you very well *could* have recipe for disaster.

But in spite of this, I actually don’t feel like I’m headed into disaster territory right now — and here’s why. Continue reading “Dealing With Disappointment”

A Nice Distraction

Walking%20shoesRecently, a  lunch-time walking group was formed at work.

Lunch-time was always my toughest time of the day for me back when I was chewing/spitting.

Unless I have lunch plans with friends or my hubby, I bring my lunch, so there’s no real reason for me to leave the office, unless I’m running errands.

So I’d find solitude in my car, drive to Target or wherever on legitimate errands (we needed dishwasher detergent, I needed to pick up milk, etc.), and then embrace the alone time to … well, chew and spit in secret.

I know it sounds terrible, but it’s true.

Now that I’m not chewing/spitting, lunch-time was still the time I’d sometimes buy triggers, take a taste and chuck it … or eat something just out of habit. Continue reading “A Nice Distraction”