Warning: This is a rambling, stream of consciousness post …. and I don’t have the desire to play editor to slim it down.
This weekend it hit me that I am the size/weight I was during my summer of losing back in 2004, my “half-way” size/shape, if you will.
And while some might not be upset by this realization, I have to say, it was an unsettling feeling for me.
It goes without saying that I never want to go back to my unhealthy habits of chewing/spitting or excessively over-exercising.
But those ways weren’t how I lost weight in the first place, anyway. I did it the old-fashioned way: eating less, moving more, following WW Online.
It worked then, and it’s not working now and truthfully, that frustrates me. I wish it didn’t frustrate me or upset me, but it does.
Five years later, that equilibrium I sought and found seems completely messed up because I work out like a fiend, I’m strength training, I’m journaling and I’m still unable to lose weight — I’m eating too much (even with journaling/following WW) to lose.