Written March 30, 2013 (12 weeks, 4 days)
Unlike so many women you hear about, I love being pregnant and experiencing the changes my body goes through.
With Maya, I hid my pregnancy til I was about 16 or 18 weeks along — and it was relatively easy because I really didn’t show til then. This time, however, I am gaining faster/showing sooner (to the tune of about four weeks sooner!) … as in, before the “safe” point of announcing.
People that know me well, know I am a fitness freak and tend to watch my weight … but I am definitely gaining and now I’m in that terribly awkward phase of looking chunky but not pregnant yet. Double ugh.
It’s not so much that I care what others think — if they want to assume I’ve packed on some winter weight, so be it. The problem is I am not comfortable in anything … except my Lululemon workout gear which — while fabulous — is not work-appropriate!
All my regular clothes are snug — literally, my waist has expanded an inch or two just in the past few weeks — but while I have a lil belly action going on, I am not big enough to fill out any maternity stuff I have from when I was pregnant with Maya. In fact, just tonight I had to return a fabulous dress I’d bought for vacation because, while it looked cute three weeks ago, when I tried it on last night I looked positively awful.
I know once I really pop I will be able to fit into maternity tops and dresses in particular … but in the meantime, it’s time for me to put away my regular jeans and dress pants for the indefinite future and pull out the elastic waistbands and belly paneled-pants.
It’ll all be worth it this fall … just have to keep that in mind while my waist, hops, and butt expand. It really is for the most amazing reason on earth and I am blessed to be experiencing this, period.
How about you? How did you deal with that awkward in-between phase, especially if you’d had body image issues before?