When I was anticipating Maya’s arrival last winter, I wrote this post, What I’ll Miss and What I Won’t, about being pregnant.
Today, while discussing weaning with a friend who is pregnant with her second baby, I got to thinking about these same notions with respect to nursing and pumping and thought I’d share them here on the blog — if for nothing else than to memorialize how I’m feeling at this very moment.
Because in the next few weeks, if not days, my pumping and nursing days will be done. I’m down to just five pumps a day plus one nursing session at night and at this point, I don’t think that I will be dealing with any engorgement issues that so many nursing moms deal with (as my supply is so low to begin with) when I do stop.
What I won’t miss …
1) The act of pumping. It’s gotten to be annoying, and stressful and the benefits aren’t outweighing the costs. It’s also painful at times and a time-suck where I could be doing other things with my daughter and/or husband. At this point, pumping has become a PITA and, frankly, the 4-5 oz a day I’m making just aren’t worth my sanity.
2) Lugging the black bag EVERYWHERE.
3) Stopping what I’m doing at work to lug my laptop to the mothers’ room to pump during my allotted time (and hurrying because, with five of us pumping at work, someone is bound to be off-schedule at some point) — and trying to schedule meetings around said pump times.
4) Washing pump parts. Over. And over. And over again. (Yes, Luis helps out with this, but still – it’s a royal PITA to clean these things. Whoever invented these contraptions HAD to be a man …
5) These hugs boobs. I’ve always been an A/B cup … and would like to see those bras again. My chest feels too big for my build now, and I’m eager to ditch these ta-tas!
What I will miss …
1) Nursing. That is all. Because for as many supply issues as I have had, and for as much as I loathed it in the beginning … Maya has always had a good latch and been a good nurser. And even though I stopped nursing her on and off these past eight months, each time I wanted to go back, she would. I love the connection, hearing her gulp, and knowing it’s my milk that is nourishing her. There’s something incredible and special about nursing … and I will miss that quiet time when she is pulling on my hair, touching my face, pulling her feet to her face all the while suckling away. It’s been a blessing and an amazing part of motherhood … and while I am sad to see that chapter ending and hope to never forget this time, I’m excited for what’s to come as our little munchkin grows.
No matter when I stop, time is flying and Maya turns eight months on Thursday … isn’t that crazy?! Here is a link to the pics from our photo shoot with my dear friend Staci (you might recall she did my maternity shoot as well as Maya’s newborn shoot). We love how they turned out — hope you like them, too!
How about you? How did you deal with weaning? What did/didn’t you miss from that stage with your child(ren)?