Today was my first day back at work, and it was a mixed bag.
On the one hand, it was horrible leaving Maya. I’m not gonna lie … I totally cried leaving her, and even a chai latte from my favorite coffee joint couldn’t cure the missing-my-baby blues.
But once Igot into the office and found my new cufice and started seeing friends and my boss and began organizing my work space, I started to feel a little better.
[Plus, a dear friend brought me a potted plant (seen in this pic) which totally spruced up my office and my day!]
I got cranking, and felt myself falling into a groove of sorts — though I was interrupted every few hours to pump. Fortunately we have a lovely mothers’ room with a couch and pillows that is cozy and right near my cufice, so I don’t need to go very far.
Throughout the day I had bouts of anxiety and moments where I wanted to cry … but I didn’t. I tried to keep it together. At lunch, I raced home for a visit.
(Of course, now I’m totally kicking myself for choosing a daycare close to home and our pediatrician instead of close to my office … ugh! But for now, it’s nice I can go home to see her!).
When I saw Maya, I totally burst into tears … but they were happy tears. I know she’s safe and happy and it’s nice that my mother-in-law (who is watching her this week) has a little alone time with her. And seeing her in the middle of the day totally warmed my heart. I kissed her goodbye and headed back.
When I got back to work, I had to pump again … and had a definite wardrobe malfunction situation I just have to share — all you nursing/pumping moms will see why 😉
You see, I was wearing a slate gray matte jersey wrap dress I got at Banana to wear as my first-day-of-work outfit … a dress I felt good in otherwise. Little did I know that my bra was all wrong for it … following a pumping session I had absolute NERTS (Nipple Erection Right Through Shirt)!!! … I almost died when I got to the bathroom and realized it! PRAYING no one else noticed but oh boy …
Boobs 1 – Melissa 0.
Guess I’ll be wearing a different nursing bra tomorrow — i.e., one with padding!
Anyway, all in all, it was a good day … as good a day as it can be when your whole world changes. For now, I’m just taking things one day at a time.
Let There Be Light 
SO glad to hear that your first day went well, perhaps excepting the NERTS. (I’m always so sensitive when I’m, er, sporting those, but I never notice when other people have it. So don’t worry, you probably flew under the radar!)
LOL … thank you. I hope so!
OMG, you are hilarious!!!
I”m so, so sorry we missed each other today. We must do lunch soon (when you’re okay with not running home, of course)!
I’m personally (selfishly) so glad you’re back. You’ve been dearly missed. But, I think you’re going to be great, NERTS and all.
LOL!
I know, I was bummed too but I don’t know where anyone lives and I was trying to get acclimated so I had no time for socializing. We’ll find each other today — and yes we will do lunch! She’s at daycare next week so I won’t be able to run home.
Aw thanks 🙂 I’ll be happy to take the BG social stuff off your hands too! Thanks 🙂