No, not THAT “Situation” who makes me totally embarrassed to be from Jersey … I’m talking about a much different one.
I realize I haven’t been the best blogger or even a completely honest blogger the past month, but trust me — it’s not for lack of wanting.
Some of you who have been reading my blog for a long time or know me in real life may have guessed …
I didn’t even realize it at first, to be honest … I just thought I was ridiculously tired and inexplicably had no desire to work out. I wondered, Who was this woman?!
Since my periods have been irregular since going off the Pill last June — also when I began taking folic acid supplements each day per my doctor’s rec — I was used to going five weeks or so between cycles … so I didn’t really think twice.
And sure, my breasts were sore as all get-out (sorry if that’s TMI) but what woman’s aren’t before her period? Only this time, I had no cramps … i.e., no indicator that my period was coming anytime soon. I kept waiting, but they never came.
I started getting excited in my head, but didn’t want to jump the gun … so I figured I’d wait it out a little longer. I even pushed back my annual lady-doc visit two times in April “just in case.”
Then when both my dental hygienist and dentist (separately!!) asked, “So, are you and your husband planning on starting a family anytime soon?” one day in early May (the 4th, to be exact), it prompted me to immediately buy a home pregnancy test. I mean, the facts were clear: I was blatantly late, my hubby knew I was late, and I just needed a test to confirm it!
So I bought a home pregnancy test and sure enough, there it was — the “BFP” or “Big Fat Positive” (yea, I’ve learned some pregnancy lingo already!). We were thrilled, for sure! 🙂
At my annual visit the following week, the pregnancy was confirmed and at our first ultrasound two weeks later — at 10 weeks — I was given the approximate due date of December 21, 2010. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
Excited as I was to spill the beans, naturally I couldn’t blog about it since it was just too soon. Plus, I was so run-down, bloated, had no energy and felt queasy … so blogging wasn’t exactly appealing (I will add — I had no actual morning sickness, fortunately … my mom never experienced it, either, and they say your pregnancies will often mirror your mother’s).
Anyhoo … adding more stress to an already emotional time, we had some complications (hence “the situation”) and it was a looooong physically and emotional painful couple of weeks where I went through a lot of doctor-recommended genetic testing and more anxiety than we could have ever imagined … but I hope you will understand our desire to keep the details private. Just know it was a very difficult few weeks for me, for us as a couple, for our families — and that we’re feeling very hopeful now.
I’m in the second trimester now (I’m 14 weeks, 6 days today, to be exact!) and aside from the testing-induced anxiety, I’ve felt pretty amazing this whole time.
In tomorrow’s post I’ll talk more about the physical aspects of my pregnancy itself (how I’m handling it with respect to my disordered eating history, weight gain, etc.) but I wanted to devote a whole separate post to that — especially since I anticipate my blog taking a very different direction 🙂
(Side note: for readers totally not interested in pregnancy, don’t worry, I’m not going to turn into a mommy blogger — nothing against them, but that’s not the direction I see my blog going — and not every post will be pregnancy-related. But it is a big deal in my life right now and to ignore it would be kind of ridiculous).
To the very few who knew what was going on with “the situation”, thank you SO MUCH for your support and love. And to those of you who didn’t know but still were there for me and kept checking in … thank you as well! I’m sorry I couldn’t share this sooner, but I hope you understood my hesitation to say anything til now.
Please know that your thoughts and prayers and kind words have meant the world to us. From the bottom of my heart, thank you! I hope to be back to a more regular posting schedule going forward 🙂