I have absolutely NO desire to exercise right now.
Who am I?!
I feel exhausted, tired, sleep-deprived, drained.
I’m not sure if it’s the grueling puppy-schedule-situation or what but I also feel no guilt associated with not (formally) exercising since last Thursday.
And for me to take three (potentially four, if I don’t make it tonight) days off without any guilt is seriously unheard of!
Due to a myriad of fun plans (yea!) I couldn’t hit the gym — physically couldn’t get there during operating hours — and then the one time I could go (and even planned to go — Sunday) I opted to stay home with my husband and Rocco before heading to a friend’s baby shower. Yea, you heard me. I CHOSE to stay home. CHOSE to not exercise.
Who is this alien life form inside my brain!??!
It can only mean one of three things:
1) I’m burned out and just need a week off.
2) I’m getting sick (I honestly don’t feel well).
3) I’m finally realizing that, hey, it’s OK to just “be” sometimes.
My instinct tells me it might be a combination of the three, but regardless of the “why” — it’s quite freeing to feel no guilt associated with what I’d typically chastise myself for being (i.e., “lazy”). The thing is, I know myself … and I’m anything but lazy. One week off (for me) would not set a negative tone. For someone like me, it’s probably a healthy break.
So if I need these few days — or even a week — for me … so be it.
As a chronic over-exerciser (mostly in the past, but even today I still sometimes push myself when I really shouldn’t) this was really mind-blowing to genuinely feel no remorse or regret.
In fact, I’m looking forward to tonight — taking Rocco to the vet for the first time, and spending some time with my husband, who heads back to school tomorrow after a little break.
Something tells me I just need to be listening to my body right now. And I don’t feel like talking back.
How about you? Do you ever feel this way? And does the lack of guilt ever surprise you?