I said to her, I don’t know if you’ll necessarily need to count forever … but to me it’s like a bank account. I hate balancing it, but it’s part of my life. Some people have lots of money in the bank and don’t need to worry about it … others need to live paycheck to paycheck. In the proverbial sense, I need to live “paycheck to paycheck.”
I very much think of food like money; if I don’t have an idea of what’s in my checking account, I’ll no doubt go on a “shopping spree.”
And while there’s a part of me that would love to be on the intuitive eating bandwagon, I know that living inside of parameters — even when I color outside the lines — is better for my mind, body and soul than throwing caution to the wind.
It’s very much a personality thing. For me, it doesn’t feel unnatural or uncomfortable to journal. To me, it feels very normal; it’s like tracking my finances — a necessary evil.
Of course, it doesn’t stop me anymore from eating beyond my allotted Points (hence, I’m not a size 6 any longer!) … but having some semblance of boundaries helps me, mentally.
I recognize that it’s not for everyone, and I fully admit that there was a time when all the Points and calories drove me mad. But now that I’m listening more to myself — which hasn’t helped my waistline 😉 — I think eventually I’ll find that happy medium.
Ultimately, I think we all know ourselves best and what works for Sue might not work for Sally. Likewise, what works for me, might not work for you. It’s not a “right/wrong” issue at all.
How about you? Does journaling make you more obsessive or help keep you in line?