Happy belated Valentine’s Day, everyone!
I am back from visiting my family in New Jersey. š We had a wonderful time doing what we do best: gabbing and noshing!
IĀ love my family so much and hate how far apart we live from each other.Ā The only person missing was my brother — but we’ll see him in 12 days in Korea š
Anyway, we got in way too late for me to even think about blogging last night, so I figured I’d squeeze in a post tonight while my hubby is at class.
From a disordered eating recovery perspective, this weekend was, for all intents and purposes, a delicious carb-fest — and I enjoyed every bite.
I ate doughy rustic bread and salt bagels (my FAVE! “The best bagels come from N.J.” ;)). I enjoyed bites of dessert and sangria and wine.
I just ate everything in moderation and intuitively (well, for the most part intuitively!).
I made good choices: choosing half a bagel (with yogurt and fruit) vs a full bagel; having bread but not pasta; etc. And since I deliberately didn’t bring running shoes, I didn’t exercise one bit Fri., Sat., or Sun.
Tonight, after I finish this post, I’ll get in my first workout in three days. I know it’ll feel great to move.; I felt antsy all day at work just wanting to MOVE.
Lounging on the couch at home just chatting with my family was much-needed and relaxing … but I am ready to bust a move! Since I so rarely take rest days, I don’t feel like three days off will set me back too much from a fitness standpoint. We shall see!
Anyway, I’m glad I was able to loosen up a little and enjoy … but I do need to face some reality. I saw photos of myself and my face is looking particularly chubby at the moment — which I don’t see in the mirror, but do see in photos.
So there is work to be done — but I’m not going to kill myself. I didn’t make my “lose X before Korea” goal, but I felt comfortable and relaxed in my own skin.
My mom even noticed how calm I was around food. She said it’s nice to see me eating whatever I want. The fact that she noticed meant a lot. (My mom’s probably my biggest cheerleader).Ā I told her I’m still keeping track in my head – I can’t turn that off — but I’m not depriving myself. As she noted, I might be tallying in my head, but I’m not talking about it out loud, like I used to.
So yea, I blew through my 35 Flex Points in a single weekend, but I felt calm and at ease with my attitude and my behavior.Ā As I’ve said before, it’s moments like this that make me realize how far I’ve come.
How abou you? How was your weekend? Did you have any big challenges?
Let There Be Light 
Saw your pics on FB and you look stunning! If it makes you feel any better, *I* don’t think your face looks chubby. Seriously! š
Thanks, Alison, you’re sweet!! š Bu truly, I can see it. It’s ok though–I enjoyed and now it’s time to buckle down some — in moderation!
So glad to hear you were able to let go a bit and enjoy yourself. I know how much those little victories mean (like making smart food choices, being intuitive, taking rest days). You sound like you’re in a really good place š
Thanks, Kim!! I do feel like I’m in a good place. Now if only these 10-15 lbs didn’t hold me back … š
Wow – now THAT is a bagel! I’ve never had a NJ bagel. This will definitely be on my bucket list. š
I’m so glad you were more relaxed around food this weekend. Sometimes, although the moments can seem few to me, when that happens to me it is such a moment of clarity and peace. Like, “THIS is what it’s like to think normally about food?” I wish I could bottle up that feeling and carry it with me always. But I hope (for both of us) that the more the often it happens, the easier it will get!
Holly, I hope you don’t mind but I just tweeted that: ” I’ve never had a NJ bagel. This will definitely be on my bucket list” — LOVE IT!!!
Like you, I hope I can have that feeling more and more frequently.
Oh NJ Bagels….swoon…I’m a Jersey girl too š Glad you had a great time!
Liz
i’m a jersey girl too, looove the bagels!
welcome back! you sounded wonderful in your post. the relaxing and ‘feel good’ weekend came through in your blog. it sounds like you are in a great place. and bonus that your mom noticed how relaxed you were.
personally, i would have been nervous going into a weekend like that, but good for you for focusing on your family and not the food!
Bagels!!! How much I miss thee! I’m from NYC but recently moved to Europe. While I love living in Poland, I miss new york bagels more than anything (esp. H&H!)
That is awesome! It sounds like you really were able to enjoy the time with your family and had your fill (in smart portions!) of bagels (mm) and sangria. I love that! Go you!!
PS. NJ bagels are now on my bucket list as well š