Lunch-time was always my toughest time of the day for me back when I was chewing/spitting.
Unless I have lunch plans with friends or my hubby, I bring my lunch, so there’s no real reason for me to leave the office, unless I’m running errands.
So I’d find solitude in my car, drive to Target or wherever on legitimate errands (we needed dishwasher detergent, I needed to pick up milk, etc.), and then embrace the alone time to … well, chew and spit in secret.
I know it sounds terrible, but it’s true.
Now that I’m not chewing/spitting, lunch-time was still the time I’d sometimes buy triggers, take a taste and chuck it … or eat something just out of habit.
So since I’m aware 12-1 p.m. is my “tough time” of the day, I more than welcomed the notion of a walking group.
I think this walking group is going to be much more than a distraction — it might even serve as a lifeline for me this summer.
How so? you ask.
Well, first off, it’s social.
While I have a few amazing friends at work (who are also walking), I don’t have a ton of friends there because my job is totally solitary (I’m not part of any teams and I only work on one account). So in addition to bonding time with the girls I already love, it also encourages me to mingle with other people I might not otherwise chat with, helping me become more confident here at work.
Second, it’s a mid-day break from the grind. I love my job, but there’s something nice about just upping and leaving mid-way through the day, coming back refreshed … and not feeling guilty for anything! (If I’m with others, I’m not buying or eating stuff I don’t need to be eating).
Third, I’m not spending money (on things I need or don’t need).
(When I lived in DC, I’d often shop on my lunch breaks. The year I interned at U.S. News was the worst — it was in Georgetown … and let’s just say my wallet was a revolving door.)
I don’t have many shopping options downtown here, so sometimes I’d go to Walgreen’s just to go or walk to one of the cafes downtown, and I’d spend money I didn’t need to be spending — not to mention the money I’d waste on food I wouldn’t actually eat and/or enjoy.
And fourth, it’s exercise in a format I’m not used to. I mean, I love to walk and do it often, but I’ve never been big on considering walking a workout … to me, I’ve always needed to be dripping in sweat to consider it one. But that’s soooo not true, and so this group workout has been a nice change of pace for me the three times I’ve done it so far.
Most of us probably won’t be able to make it all five days during the week due to schedules, meetings, work loads, other plans … but I’m going to make a concerted effort to choose this over being alone.
I think this might be just the ticket to help allay some of my dissatisfied-with-everything feelings, at least during the day.
When I come back refreshed with a clear head … I’m ready to eat my packed lunch and move on with my day; not dwell over having bought something I didn’t need.
Though this isn’t ED-related, it’s another example of choosing pride over guilt … and I look forward to many more walking sessions going forward (pardon the pun).
How about you? What time of day is the hardest for you? What about when it comes to binging? Do you participate in an employee wellness or fitness group?