Reading about pregorexia (a term often used to describe preoccupation with weight control through extreme dieting and exercising while pregnant) in a recent New York Times blog post Cathy shared with me, “During Pregnancy, Starving for Two” just made me want to cry.
Part of the reason I’m on this journey to be past my disordered eating behaviors is so I can someday 1) get pregnant and 2) carry and deliver a healthy baby and 3) be a good role model of a mom to my children.
I know every day I don’t engage in DE behaviors makes me one step closer to this someday being a real possiblity: that this will be in my past. Every day I choose to be kind to my body, fuel it well, work it moderately … I’m doing my body, mind and soul a favor.
(And no, I don’t really consider my midnight eating disordered behavior; it’s not the same as chewing/spitting in my eyes).
A few weeks into blogging last June, I voiced my concern about future pregnancy, and got some beautiful advice from you, my readers.
But for all my concerns — which are not unfounded (what woman welcomes the notion of gaining 25-35 lbs?!) — the very LAST thing I think I’d consider during pregnancy would be restricting or over-exercising! I just can’t imagine it, at all. I know sometimes my actions might lead my readers or friends or loved ones to think otherwise, but that’s why I’m working so hard on this now.
I mean, there’d be life in my belly; how could I treat it with such disrespect? But that is rational Melissa speaking now, and the women experiencing “pregorexia” probably never expected to go down that path.
That said, I know I will need to be extra vigilant not to even entertain the thoughts of weight-control when the time comes. In fact, I found this helpful article from the Department of Health and Human Services that has some good advice for when the time comes.
It’s a very fine line to walk, but reading something like that column about “pregorexia” was a real wake-up call. It scared the hell out of me, and makes me that much more sure that taking control of my actions and behaviors now will pay dividends later.
And since thoughts lead to actions … thinking about this now will hopefully prevent an unhealthy view of pregnancy when the time comes someday.
How about you? Have you heard of “pregorexia”? Do you fear being susceptible because of past DE/ED behaviors??