Cravings … Sweet Cravings

reesesegg-smI’ve given into my cravings for the past week or so … usually in the form of chocolate.

Journaling everything, but not denying myself anything, really.

Which can be both positive and negative, depending on the situation.

The thing is, I’ve been an insatiable beast, and my period is over a week away!

My self-analysis says that I stopped the chewing/spitting, but am still buying some triggers … perhaps to test myself? The thing is, I don’t NEED any of it; I just WANT it.

So the next step is a logical one, don’t test yourself, don’t buy the triggers.

Yet you should have seen the chocolate in my cart at Whole Foods and Trader Joe’s (dark chocolate covered raisins, organic dark chocolate chips, a homemade peppermint patty, Luna bars (white chocolate macadamia) and a hunk of homemade white chocolate/Oreo bark.

My friend and I laughed about it then (it was kind of funny to see canned tomatoes, Chobani yogurts and then what seemed like a lot of sweets) but it’s like I was on a chocolate bender or something.

I guess the thing is, I only get out to Whole Foods and Trader Joe’s when in Ann Arbor these days, so it’s not like I can get these exact goodies elsewhere, but still … I kinda went nuts for chocolate!

I have the raisins and chocolate chips at home to eat in moderation (hubby doesn’t like either).

But I had to toss the patty and bark after a couple bites of each. Why? Easy. I didn’t want to get the notion to chew/spit … so it was better just to not have them home at all.

Then yesterday, (what was I thinking!?), I bought both white and fudge Reese’s PB eggs at Target, and took a litle nibble out of several eggs before chucking them entirely. A total waste of money, and calories, too.

All of which brought me to the realization that I am buying foods I NEVER bought when I was in losing mode five years ago. Foods I shunned.

And since I’m coming up to my five-year WW anniversary (April 13) I thought now is as good a time as any to can the mindless buying.

It’s one thing to enjoy chocolate … to savor it. I’m ok with that, in moderation.

But to stockpile it like I will never have it again? Not necessary, and not healthy.

I mean, yes, it’s good I’m not chewing and spitting it. But I didn’t need to buy these sweets, either. I don’t need the sugar or saturated fat, especially when it means I might cut back elsewhere in my day to compensate (which is “restriction” of its own kind).

Moreover, I’m lifting to transform my body, so putting refined sugar into it just isn’t helping me any — it just works against it. Like Newton’s Third Law of Motion says, “For every action there is an equal but opposite reaction.” I don’t want equlibrium; I want to see pleasant results, a better physique (sans obsession).

So today, I’m making yet another pledge. I’m going to fuel my body kinder. I am not going to buy said triggers … it’s a waste of money and right now I need to concentrate on clean eating, not giving in to every craving in the book.

I need to remind myself of “food as fuel,” when cravings strike. Especially if I just gave in to a craving the previous day. Moderation, Melissa, moderation …

Times like this, I deflect back to Dr. Beck’s “resistance muscle” analogy I talked about this summer.

I need to be flexing it, baby! Practicing “No Choice.” No more all or nothing … just balance.

How about you? Is there a particular food that you crave? Salty or sweet? Do you give in to your resistance muscle, or flex it?

14 thoughts on “Cravings … Sweet Cravings

  1. Especially at this time of year, I am obsessed with Cadbury Mini Eggs. I could eat an entire bag in one sitting, which is awful. I somewhat justify it to myself by saying, “Oh, well they’re only stocked this time of year. It’s okay. Enjoy them now.” I know how terrible they are for me, but I am finding myself having difficulty resisting. Last night when I was coming home from class (exhausted and hungry may I add), I wanted nothing more than to go to a store and purchase a bag of them. Instead, I thought about all the healthy, delicious foods I could eat more of at home, instead of hundreds of calories of candy. I totally know what you mean though. I need to stop justifying buying them to myself and see them for just what they are – candy.

  2. I do have the chocolate craving issue sometimes, and also other super sweet or cakey things, but what helps me sometimes, is to think of my body as my friend, like a seperate person who I am also taking care of and who takes care of me. Does that make sense. I guess a lot of times when I think of me, I think of my feelings and thoughts and conciousness, and my body is also there, but a lot of times I can think of it as someone else. This usually encourages me to treat it better since I have the tendency to treat others better than myself. Just an idea.

  3. LOL Mara, that’s gonna be me soon. Sometimes I can walk by it completely, other times I get “curious” — not that I don’t know what’s there … 😉

    Lia, I like that idea — it’s a good reframing tool!

  4. I have a BIG sweet tooth. Lately, however, it’s been under control. I didn’t really think about it until I read this post, but I think the key is eating small bits of it regularly/without guilt.

    Almost three weeks ago (I can’t believe I still have it!) I bought dark chocolate covered edamame at TJ’s. The first night I bought it I measured out 1/4 cup and ate them in front of the tv, but since then I’ll grab maybe 4 or 5 a day. I actually don’t crave them when I go for them, but since I have been nibbling, I haven’t had a real sweet craving.

    Granted this has only been going on for 2-3 weeks and I’m sure I’ll have a stressful day when my bf’s working late and I need to comfort myself and I’ll be in danger of binging, but baby steps!

  5. I think that is key, Kristen, small bits regularly/without guilt. Food shouldn’t be a cause for “guilt” but for those of us struggling with these issues, it often is. Working on it, though!

    Way to go with your dark chocolate covered edamame! 🙂

  6. I’m with Mara – I can’t even go down the candy aisle! For me, it’s sweets all the way. Chocolate, ice cream, and of course cookie dough. 🙂 I don’t know if I’ll ever be *that girl* who can keep chocolate in her pantry for weeks, but for right now it just works for me not to have it at my house. If it’s not there, I won’t binge on it!

  7. I am going through something very similar right now but I’m trying to switch to intuitive eating and I’m still looking for that balance between enjoying my previous “bad” foods and not comprimising my health. I am hoping that at the moment I’m just indulging because my body and mind are so used to having these foods become off limits before they even touch my lips. So we’ll see. It’s an experiment but one I’m going to try for a long time. I’ve also decided not to try to lose weight right now though. I just want to be healthy with my behaviour and eating piles of chocolate only to call it off limits the next day is a vicious cycle. I think the more you consider it off limits or evil or whatever, the more you want it.

    Kids that have tons of junk in their house growing up aren’t as excited when it’s around. In university we realized that the kids that grew up with a junk drawer or cupboard didn’t have the same fixation and love for junk as the ones who’s family’s were uber healthy. That’s what I noticed anyway. The more you can’t have it, the more you want it.

    I too am trying to focus on what is going to help me to get to my goals of treating my body well. Is candy going to do that, probably not. But I get to make that choice. Having the choice is key for me. I’m really trying to eliminate all rules related to food and eating. My fingers are crossed that it is what works for me! So far it seems like progress. I’m certainly having lesser binges and don’t feel so compelled to have that “last supper”.

  8. I know I’ve taken over this comment section but I wanted to add something that helped me a bit .. at one point! I read the book “food and mood” which explained the science behind how different chemicals and nutrients affect your body and what happens in your body with different processes.
    It really helped me to understand why it’s so hard to stop at one candy. The sugar actually does send a signal to your brain to get more. It’s just plain science. For some reason actually understanding the process made me think twice whether I wanted to battle with science next time I was in the candy aisle. It also made me stop blaming myself for my “lack of will power to leave half a bag of mini eggs”. Your brain becomes influenced by the sugar and then signals you to get more. It’s fascinating but knowing that really helped me.

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