While it’s always nice to see comments, or to see how many hits a particular entry got … or didn’t get, which sometimes happens, too … the data point that interests me most is how many people are clicking on the HELP page each day.
As it turns out, at least 267 people have clicked on the help link since I added it in late November. That means a lot to me.
Sure, I can’t guarantee that those clicks lead to someone actually seeking the help they need, or someone they care about needs. But knowing that in my own little way, I can offer people a place to turn, an organization to reach out to … makes me feel good, like I’m doing my part in this giant blogosphere.
If you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you know I’m a big proponent of therapy. Between traditional CBT therapy with Dr. G, and blogotherapy, I’ve been working through my own issues. I can’t credit it with “recovery” because to me, I’m a work in progress. But I knew I needed help, and I’m so glad I took the steps to get the help I so needed.
Which brings me to my next point. I think we all know that ultimately, until someone is ready to take the steps toward recovery, it won’t happen.
Denial usually fuels this “It’s not for me, I don’t need help, I’m ok as I am, I can go it alone” belief.
People can try to talk to us til they’re blue in the face … (I can’t tell you how many times friends/family members/my husband voiced their honest concern over my obsession with food, weight, control). Yet it took me seeing, “Houston, we have a problem,” before I could do something about it myself.
One day we wake up and literally think, “You know what? I don’t have to live like this forever. I don’t want to be this person I see in the mirror. She’s scary. She’s not me. She’s a shell of me, with no core … no heart, no joy.”
And, if we’re ready to overcome our challenge,… we start to break free from the chains … letting go one at a time, or busting loose from them all at once in a cataclysmic boom.
I’m not naïve; I know recovery doesn’t happen overnight. But I do believe we can recover, especially those of us on the border, on the fringe, on the brink …
For some on the cusp (like me, who in spite of my issues never engaged in binging/purging or anorexia)… it will perhaps require therapy, maybe a nutritionist to help us establish a healthier relationship with food (since food — or lack of it — is usally the coping mechanism for something else).
And for those battling true eating disorders, in-patient or out-patient care plus psychotherapy might be the best solution; everyone recovers at a different pace … sadly, some never recover at all.
(MamaV has a Memorial page on her blog dedicated to those who succumbed to their eating disorders or complications related to their ED).
Above all, I just think we need to want it for ourselves first. We’re worth it. This is just a little reminder, before the weekend, to please take care of yourselves.
I feel like I am in a good place right now … a healthy mindset. And I’d love to have company here!
How about you? Have you turned to the blogosphere or the Internet in general during a challenging time — eating disorder wise or otherwise?