My pledge to only eat when seated hasn’t been working.
I haven’t eaten in my car (save for chewing a piece of sugar-free gum) but every night for the past week (except for one night) I’ve woken and eaten … standing up.
As you know, this has been a problem I’ve been dealing with for over three years now, on and off.
My doctors have no explanation, my therapist doesn’t see it as a problem (and moreover, she wants me to not view it as a problem, either).
But I am sick and tired of not sleeping through the night. Of restless nights and stressed-out mornings because I “didn’t make it through the night.”
I have no logical explanation. I’ve gone to bed happy, after a good workout and a good dinner every night. I’m eating plenty (not too much, not too little). I’m hydrated. I’ve had minimal stress at work. I take a long hot shower or bath at night. And, I’m getting plenty of sleep (since I am working out after work now) so I’m not waking up til almost 7 now (vs. 5:15)!
But yet each night without fail, I’ve woken to eat. Right now, I’m less than a week from that lovely time of month and I have noticed the correlation over the years. Dr. G thinks it very well could be hormonal, and maybe that is why this is happening yet again (it’s cyclical).
Whatever the case, it drives me nuts. I track the Points towards the next day, and technically I am still “OP” (on program) because I haven’t touched my Activity Points and have just been eating Target Points and Flex Points … but it frustrates me to no end. And the frustration leads to more anxiety.
If I were just eating mindlessly or even emotionally during “normal” hours (i.e., not the middle of the night) I wouldn’t be as frustrated; that I could control, even though it’d be tough.
But it’s happening at 2 a.m., on auto-pilot. And I just can’t stop it once it starts.
So all I can do is “soar with my strengths” of measuring and journaling — even at 2 a.m. — and just hope that in time I’ll sleep soundly.
How about you? Are you having trouble sleeping lately? Do you ever wake and eat?