So I fasted successfully today.
I am hoping the experience will help me reset my hunger queues, and help me see that I will not die of hunger if I don’t eat the second I feel hungry.
As a disordered eater, one would think a self-imposed fast (even for religious reasons) would be detrimental to my progress. But I think it served me the opposite.
Today, I surprised myself when I listened to what my body was telling me. For example, I didn’t feel my first hunger pang until about noon. And then by 2:30, they dissipated entirely. Around 4:30 I felt some more pangs, and tried to nap — genuinely feeling weak. I honestly don’t know how people starve themselves every day.
And by the time it actually was time to eat, I really wasn’t hungry at all. I felt cleansed both mentally and spiritually, and felt like food might corrupt that or something.
But logically, I knew I had prepared a nice dinner for my husband and I, and wanted to break-the-fast for that reason. Because it’s all about balance.
The no-drinking part was the hardest for me, as it always is. It was also pretty hard to core apples for homemade applesauce and not snag a slice. But in reality, it was a fairly easy fast.
The sun dipped behind the clouds around 7:20… and water had never tasted so good!
Dinner was salad, Core meat sauce, whole wheat pasta and green beans. Earlier this afternoon I’d put apples in the crockpot with a little cinnamon, nutmeg and sugar and the “apple sauce” came out absolutely perfect. (I love apple pie filling but hate crust — this was HEAVEN for me). I served the apples over light vanilla ice cream. It was perfect.
In all, I ate only 12 points today, but I’m ok with that — yesterday I’d had 27 points, and it’s not like I was deliberately trying to starve. I just couldn’t fit anything else, and didn’t need to eat if I am full just to meet my daily target of 20 points.
Actually, my stomach really hurts from having eaten “so much” at once. And I think had I had a lighter, smaller dinner, I’d have only ended up noshing the night away…so it was the better option to enjoy a real meal.
I’m satisfied and happy, proud for having made it through yet another Yom Kippur fast. I hope to keep some of the tools in my toolbox.
How about you? If you fasted, how did it go?